Hi there,
When I (am already trying to) forget you (a little bit), last week I received your phone call in the afternoon while I was randomly at the library - our most favourite dating place. Never crossed in my mind that you'd actually call me just to say hi and giving your life-update during your travel time. You were in Kyoto and you did not do anything touristy that day, just chilling at the hostel you said. You just called your parents, talking for two hours, then you called me. But the signal was crap, we only talked for less than 10 minutes. Over the phone, you were still the same person with the over enthusiastic voice tone.
"I'm still going to get my Indonesian lesson, right?"
And I was like, yeah if you still feel like to learn about it. When you said that, I was sort of confused.What are we going to be after you get back here? Are we gonna be good friends / close friends / couple with 'it's complicated' status / lover? I do not want to think about it too seriously but I am in the phase of life that when it comes to relationship I need some sort of certainty. Let me see what is going to happen next. 11 days till you are home. I am excited but a little piece of my heart not wanting us to be the way we used to be before - 'with no status'. Back then, you considered us dating but you never brought me to your clique. We'd been dating for 2,5 months. After that you travelled for 2 months, only contacted me three times randomly. First, when you were arrived at Japan. Second, when you were arrived at Kyoto (I replied your line with such a long words and you only replied with one ROFL sticker -_-). Third, that phone call a week ago.
And I just stumbled through your facebook today, seeing your photo. I guess I miss you a bit. But I hate you, more than just a little bit.
Friday, 13 February 2015
Wednesday, 28 January 2015
I Do Have
"Do you have whatsapp?"
Suddenly my heart stopped and butterflies tickled my stomach.
Started with "Anyway I'm jobless so I'm pretty much free everyday hahahha" and six hours later he asked for my whatsapp. I know, there's nothing special in it. Usually the most common reactions to my invitation to hangout if they was not really sure about that are "Sure, I'll let you know." or "Yeah that sounds great." or something that leads to nothing.
But he asked for my whatsapp number so he's being serious about hanging out with me. I try to keep it cool and don't wanna rush, so I will wait until morning to get back to him.
Still remember on Monday he asked, "What will you do on Saturday?"- and I have work on weekend - same as him.
On the bus, he randomly asked me to teach him Indonesian. He did not even know the geographical position of Indonesia before he met me.
He sat behind my seat and when I was facing the front side he said, "Hey Nada, you must teach me some Indonesian." and I told him about simple words like apa kabar dan nama saya. And when our eyes met each other, I was fckin melting. I couldn't hide my feeling that I have crush on him.
I feel like to meet him so often.
Man! Is this wrong?
Suddenly my heart stopped and butterflies tickled my stomach.
Started with "Anyway I'm jobless so I'm pretty much free everyday hahahha" and six hours later he asked for my whatsapp. I know, there's nothing special in it. Usually the most common reactions to my invitation to hangout if they was not really sure about that are "Sure, I'll let you know." or "Yeah that sounds great." or something that leads to nothing.
But he asked for my whatsapp number so he's being serious about hanging out with me. I try to keep it cool and don't wanna rush, so I will wait until morning to get back to him.
Still remember on Monday he asked, "What will you do on Saturday?"- and I have work on weekend - same as him.
On the bus, he randomly asked me to teach him Indonesian. He did not even know the geographical position of Indonesia before he met me.
He sat behind my seat and when I was facing the front side he said, "Hey Nada, you must teach me some Indonesian." and I told him about simple words like apa kabar dan nama saya. And when our eyes met each other, I was fckin melting. I couldn't hide my feeling that I have crush on him.
I feel like to meet him so often.
Man! Is this wrong?
Tuesday, 27 January 2015
Crush
Remember the guitarist I have ever told you about in the previous post? I met him on the beginning of January, after I got back from Melbourne. We just met for the first time and we just got this click happening between us. He's a good guitarist. We have different taste of music but our conversation flew so smoothly. He reminds me of some of my best-boy-friends in Indonesia.
But unfortunately he ended up with another band as guitarist with the plan to go tour around Australia and US. Our acoustic duo is going to the end haha. But he invited me to his band's performance on Australia Day. It was raining like all day but I managed to go there in the middle of his performance with my uni friend. We hung out a little bit after the performance, had a chit-chat with his friend. It was so fun to talk to him.
Plus, he's cute.
Too bad, he has a girlfriend.
Damn.
But unfortunately he ended up with another band as guitarist with the plan to go tour around Australia and US. Our acoustic duo is going to the end haha. But he invited me to his band's performance on Australia Day. It was raining like all day but I managed to go there in the middle of his performance with my uni friend. We hung out a little bit after the performance, had a chit-chat with his friend. It was so fun to talk to him.
Plus, he's cute.
Too bad, he has a girlfriend.
Damn.
Ah...
Would you invest your time with someone who did not mutually invest their time for you?
Some people says it is not worth your time.
But when you follow your heart instead of logic, it is gonna be a very difficult one.
Back to a month ago, we were still contacting each other. Then now, we totally lost contact. The moment you did not reply to my 'Happy New Year', I just knew like 'snap' there is no future in it. That is the problem with distance, you have no idea with what happened from miles away. I constantly check your last seen on Whatsapp, your Facebook timeline, your band page. I sound like desperate stalker. I kept saying, "Stop that! There is no point in it."But I kept doing it over and over again. There is some sort of never ending curiosity. Although I guess now I already reached the point when I 'need' to really get over it and 'open' my eyes\heart\mind for another person out there.
Some people says it is not worth your time.
But when you follow your heart instead of logic, it is gonna be a very difficult one.
Back to a month ago, we were still contacting each other. Then now, we totally lost contact. The moment you did not reply to my 'Happy New Year', I just knew like 'snap' there is no future in it. That is the problem with distance, you have no idea with what happened from miles away. I constantly check your last seen on Whatsapp, your Facebook timeline, your band page. I sound like desperate stalker. I kept saying, "Stop that! There is no point in it."But I kept doing it over and over again. There is some sort of never ending curiosity. Although I guess now I already reached the point when I 'need' to really get over it and 'open' my eyes\heart\mind for another person out there.
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