I Do Have

"Do you have whatsapp?"

Suddenly my heart stopped and butterflies tickled my stomach.
Started with "Anyway I'm jobless so I'm pretty much free everyday hahahha" and six hours later he asked for my whatsapp. I know, there's nothing special in it. Usually the most common reactions to my invitation to hangout if they was not really sure about that are "Sure, I'll let you know." or "Yeah that sounds great." or something that leads to nothing.
But he asked for my whatsapp number so he's being serious about hanging out with me. I try to keep it cool and don't wanna rush, so I will wait until morning to get back to him.

Still remember on Monday he asked, "What will you do on Saturday?"- and I have work on weekend - same as him.

On the bus, he randomly asked me to teach him Indonesian. He did not even know the geographical position of Indonesia before he met me.
He sat behind my seat and when I was facing the front side he said, "Hey Nada, you must teach me some Indonesian." and I told him about simple words like apa kabar dan nama saya. And when our eyes met each other, I was fckin melting. I couldn't hide my feeling that I have crush on him.

I feel like to meet him so often.


Man! Is this wrong?

Crush

Remember the guitarist I have ever told you about in the previous post? I met him on the beginning of January, after I got back from Melbourne. We just met for the first time and we just got this click happening between us. He's a good guitarist. We have different taste of music but our conversation flew so smoothly. He reminds me of some of my best-boy-friends in Indonesia.

But unfortunately he ended up with another band as guitarist with the plan to go tour around Australia and US. Our acoustic duo is going to the end haha. But he invited me to his band's performance on Australia Day. It was raining like all day but I managed to go there in the middle of his performance with my uni friend. We hung out a little bit after the performance, had a chit-chat with his friend. It was so fun to talk to him.


Plus, he's cute.

Too bad, he has a girlfriend.


Damn.

Ah...

Would you invest your time with someone who did not mutually invest their time for you?
Some people says it is not worth your time.
But when you follow your heart instead of logic, it is gonna be a very difficult one.

Back to a month ago, we were still contacting each other. Then now, we totally lost contact. The moment you did not reply to my 'Happy New Year', I just knew like 'snap' there is no future in it. That is the problem with distance, you have no idea with what happened from miles away. I constantly check your last seen on Whatsapp, your Facebook timeline, your band page. I sound like desperate stalker. I kept saying, "Stop that! There is no point in it."But I kept doing it over and over again. There is some sort of never ending curiosity. Although I guess now I already reached the point when I 'need' to really get over it and 'open' my eyes\heart\mind for another person out there.