From book, sushi, to ice cream

The weather is so fucked up for the past one and a half week, like non-stop raining and super windy. It is summer now, I need the sun not the rain. It ruined all my plan. 

Despite the confusing weather, starting with "When the hell will I see you? And what the fuck is this weather!?" on 12:24AM, it started my day today.

You called me on 12:42, while I was having my instant noodle for lunch because I was too lazy to cook any other food. 

"What? You have your lunch? It is too early to have lunch. I just had breakfast an hour ago."

Cause you woke at 10:30AM man! 

You was just like, "Okay so meet at Town Hall at 6PM."

Still full of confusion because it is not so you to ask me hangout around that time with actual hangout place - not just in library - and with this unfriendly weather condition. 

After two and half weeks, we finally hung out tonight. 

We had a coffee, you with the usual long black and me with the cappucino, at the cafe at the front of QVB. I was so excited to see you and having a chat with you. When you asked me, "When are you going back to Jakarta? Your friends must be so angry with you for not getting back there in holiday."

I was so excited, I put my wrist at the table and said so animately, "Yeah they always ask me when will I get back there." Then I spilt quarter of your coffee. Good thing it did not spill to your clothes. I felt bad. But you just laughed, "That's fine, I find that funny though." And you put a sugar in your long black, something you never do to your usual coffee.

"Ssst, I only do it if the coffee taste not that good."

Then we went to Kinokuniya for almost one and a half hour. This bookstore is so huge compare to Kino in Indonesia. I can stay there for quite a long time. But I just followed you cause you were the one who wants to find xmas present for your family. And your excitement with books - linguistic, history, poetry - makes me excited as well. You were like transferred all this positive vibe to other people, including me. I always tell the story with excitement, to you. 

We had Japanese dinner. Such a good food, good conversation, good mood, happy tummy, happy me cus finally you want to take a picture together with me. 

Last destination was the N2 Ice cream. Early bday treat from you. Thanks for the Ferero Revival  :)

The shop played Thinking Out Lound-Ed sheeran, I sang too obviously. And you suddenly said, "Oh my God, I hate this song. The lyric is so lame."

Then you asked "When will you have a gig? I really wanna see you sing."

----- Speaking of which, I got in contact with this guitarist who wants to have an acoustic duo. He's around my age so it's good. His music is more pop-rock and he gave me all the rock song list. I was thinking he looks for pop-rock voice. I gave him my soundcloud and he said I've a nice and clean voice. He opens to any other genre as well. Both of us keen to have gig, so I hope it's gonna take us to someplace.----

The bus to your place was on 10PM. Tsk I wish there's 24 hours bus to your place. 

But it was really good to see you today.

Thanks for the birthday early celebration.

It is still raining and windy here. 

Chicken soup day ey

Just when yesterday I wrote that I missed singing so bad, this morning while doing yoga, my former band member in Oz -our band broke up because of nonsense reason - emailed me and asked me and my other singer mate to get back to the band. It was such a coincidence. Should I get back? I guess I need to discuss it with my other singer friend. But i miss singing so so bad!

Anyway, I cooked my first chicken soup today. Too much vegetables and less water lol. Fortunately it tastes good, similar with mom's own. But I need to add more water and put another ingredients inside.

On the weekend, I will have another observation training for the kids' entertainer job. And bcos I said, "I'm confident enough to do the games and face painting but not the balloon twisiting.", she unexpectedly said "I'm giving you opportunity to sing, face paint, and playing games if you like this weekend." Wow, am I ready??? I should so no more useless weekend in the near future.

Today is grandpa's birthday! Happy birthday for one of the handsome man in da world. Love you heaps, wish I can be there to celebrate your birthday.

Then you texted me talking about storm, I replied then you didn't reply back. What the heck man. I just don't get it, just don't.

What First week of December looked like

Today was such a chill/stormy/moody family day. Accompanying dad to the mall for getting his haircut but his usual capster didn't come. Then we decided to go to the city. I planned to get us this pork belly around The Rocks area but there was road closure at George street and every way was getting detour. Far out.
First initial plan with pork in my mind was washed away. Dad parked around QVB. Had our lunch - only me and bro though - at Westfield. We wandered around the shopping centre. I felt like "Man I need a job, I need other life." To spend time with family is a very good thing I believe, but for every weekend, man you got to get yourself out, do what you gotta do and do what you love to do eventually.

But anyway the universe is being nice to me. On Saturday morning I got a chance to go to a kids' parties with my new boss for observation. Yeah baby, I got my first weekend job! It was unexpected actually. Just saw an ad on internet looking for kids' party entertainer. I applied on Monday and the owner asked me to come along with her on Saturday to see what the role would be like.  I woke up earlier on 7am, unusual wake up time for a jobless like me. She asked me to wear nice clothes and make up and met her at station on 11 am. Since I live far on eastern and the station is on western, i should be very time-organised this time. Gladly I woke up early so I still had a chance to do laundry, having proper cereal breakfast, having a chat with dad for our family trip to Melbourne next two weeks. Anyway, after saw those two parties - the Ozzy and Indian kids' parties - it was such an overwhelming experience. For me who grew up in  family who loves to organise a birthday party - it was like seeing my childhood time. So what I should do in this role are dressing in a costume, throwing a couple of fun games, doing face-painting and balloon twisting. She even allowed me to do singing and dancing if I am comfortable to do so. She actually wants me to jump out there as soon as possible since she has a lot request during this time of the year. But I told her that I need to observe her two-three times to really get a clear idea about the routine. She was really cool with it and let me take my time to learn. The good side is I am her first trainee. So far she always works by herself for almost 10 years. Now it is the time for her to pass the knowledge and time to a younger person. I will do my best!
It feels good to have your spare time doing something none other than arts and performing, entertainment. Something I always have passion for.
I am still keen for having funk/r'nb/jazz/pop music gig and creating my own music. I know it takes time. But having performing hiatus for almost 10 months is driving me nuts, seriously. I spend my free-time for the past 3 weeks for making my own music, despite my limitation in musical instruments, or just doing karaoke from youtube. It trains my vocal ability and release all the stress. It feels like my heart wanna scream "MAN I WANNA DO MUSIC MY WHOLE LIFE!". Nothing else.
I contacted someone from this facebook group who wants to have a freeform jazz/funk group. I have no idea if they need singer, so I was just giving him message in FB. He seems into instrumentalist jazz. I told him to contact me if he needs vocal in it.

10 months without performing. I'm craving for stages!


Now this is "your" part.

I just don't get it what you trying to do with my life. Everyday you always say hi, asking lagi ngapain. Sometimes I miss you so bad until it comes to the point I do not want to contact you first or hoping to much cus I'm afraid my heart will be mixed up. Sometimes the funny thing happened between us. Still remember I came up late for your special gig at Marrickville, I was 10 minutes late. Your band finished earlier than the schedule. Then 3 days ago it was DJ Jazzy Jeff special free performance at Surry Hills. We supposed to meet up before the show for martabak, your favorite Indonesian food, at Ultimo. BUT you fell asleep it was already 630pm meanwhile you have your friend's EP launching on 8pm. We decided to cancel the dinner. I still went out to Jazzy Jeff, having fun dancing through the night, without alky at all lol and I danced like krazy. Nothing could stop me hey. I got back on 1am, hopped on 1:10am bus. You texted me "We tried to get in but got denied." And I was like,'man why dont you tell me earlier, I just got in to the bus 5 minutes ago." Found out he was there an hour ago and he was already at home that time.  So after his friend's event, he came to surprise me but he was being denied to come inside cus he was a lil bit drunk from the beer he drank previously. Plus his battery was dead.
We didn't hang out at all this week. Knowing the fact that you have finished all your assignments and only need to do the transcriptions, I thought it's gonna give us more quality time. But so far, no movie night, no jazz gig, no proper date as you've promised to me couple of times.

If You

Just finished watching If I Stay. With the back-forward plot line, music-family-love-life theme I assume, I would say it's quite a good movie. I wish it had more decent soundtrack.

Anyway, I just don't get it why you acting this way lately. Come and go as you like to. You know you are not allowed to do it right. Maybe you dont want to totally loose contact with me. But with you only said Hi then I replied then you didnt get back to me, that's not cool bro.

Sometimes I just dont know what and how to react with this kind of situation. I lost on count how many times you promise to meet up with me, having a proper date with jazz gig and wine, watching a movie and hugging each other. I dont wanna put to much expectation with this kind of siatuation. I (really try) to play it cool. It is difficult though.

Anyway, hello job seeker live. Finding the suitable role, modifying the cover later. Too much browsing any other staff, eating -_-.
I should get a job before January!


00:58
"Hey sorry I just played nintendo for 4 hours"
Duh
Whatever.